A Great Thing Called Misophonia
If you have it and think you were crazy, well I’m right there with you :)
“Misophonia, literally ‘hatred of sound.’”
I am 15-years-old, I’ve had this issue for as long as I have been able to eat. I could blame it on my dad and I wouldn’t be wrong. My dad has misophonia too, not as badly as I do, but he is the best person for spreading it to me — Thanks... Misophonia, for all you animal-like eaters, isn’t just a “get over it” situation. It’s more like “if you tell me to ignore your disgusting moralless habit one more time, I’ll have no other choice except to beat you with your own food.”
Misophonia is way deeper than just chewing with your mouth open. Along with chewing, I get bothered by fork scratching on a plate kind of noise, gulping drinks, hitting your teeth with metal, that annoying sound slime makes, but for some reason people love it so much. There’s so much more though, I know friends that get bothered by styrofoam, balloons rubbing, wood against teeth, etc. Pretty much anything that makes an obnoxious noise.
I wish I knew what goes on through people’s heads when they see someone being bothered by their mannerless lifestyle. I could see how it might come off as ridiculous to those who have no idea, but what I don’t understand is why people continue to do it after I’ve asked them to stop. It’s not a joke, you’re not on some TV show that pranks you, PleaSe StOp siR, you’re making my ears bleed.
Being 15 means I go to high school; sophomore in high school, actually. I can maybe see why people don’t believe me when I say it genuinely disturbs me because I’ve gotten “– but you’re too young?” Yes ma’am, I am 15-years-old and 5’3”, but if you decide to keep chewing popcorn like that in the movie theatre, I'm fully capable of getting away with murder.
I mean high school is just the best place for misophobics. High school is where the teachers gave up with enforcing the “no gum” rule and the “no eating” rule. Which makes it more difficult because in middle school, I’d be that brat that would actually get you in trouble, because you’re being a disgusting pig in my ear. Plus, after a couple annoying/rude comments, I've gotten a bit less confrontational in class with strangers; friends that know it bothers me, but not strangers.
I have my different days where I can go from telling them to stop, passive-aggressively, to asking very VERY nicely, to just having to pull my hair out/blasting music in my earbuds. Most of the time the response (from a stranger) would be “Oh sorry” and then they’ll stop for a good 45 seconds and then go back to it. I’ve gotten “Just ignore it.” Okay, I’ll ignore that people should have public manners that kick in automatically, which includes chewing with your mouth closed, just like you did. I’ve even gotten a simple “No.” Like I didn’t ask you from the kindness of my heart. I’m now the mother you (obviously) never had reprimanding you from the darkest place inside of me.
I’ve only met one other person my age who has it, but it still, in a way, it catches me off-guard that people actually don’t get bothered by it, it’s crazy...
I would love it if I can properly explain how much pain I go through just by hearing a second of that dumb noise. It’s beyond cringing, I don’t just curl up and shiver viciously, I cover my ears and at the same I’m literally attempting to rip my ears off my skull as I’m crying. I cause physical pain to just distract me from the noise. That, to someone who doesn’t understand, will think I am crazy and exaggerating. I assure you it’s what I do. I’ve had teachers come over and ask if I’m okay or if I wanted to go to the nurse.
All I’m asking, in the end, is please dear god realise that misophonia is an actual thing. Maybe you have an excuse for making the noise, and I’ve heard more excuses than a teacher asking for homework. On behalf of EVERYONE, not just for misophonia, just for your well-being, please have the decency of closing your mouth. I don’t know why it’s so hard and I don’t know how you were raised, but please stop. At least in public, or if someone asks for you to stop. <3 -c
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