Emily Buehner

Depression
7 months ago
I have no friends, nobody likes me, I’m not good enough, I feel alone in this world, what would people think if I was gone, maybe this world will be better without me, I have no purpose here. Sadness, remorse, guilt, shame, anger, hate, empty, alone—these are all the feelings that come to our heads and swallow us whole into what we feel like is the abyss of our current lives struggling with depression. The thing with depression is about 20 percent of all teens will experience depression before t...
Somewhere I Belong
a year ago
Seeing the flames rise higher and higher I don't know what to do when it comes. Pouring red lava from the volcano, my mind racing a million thoughts per minute but not able to see clearly through anyt...
Past the Borderline
a year ago
Ever since I was young I had the most difficult time when it came to making and keeping friends. I would always seem to lose friends and it would never last more than 4 years or less. I was forced to go to counseling when I was younger but to say that it helped at the time, I don't know if I could say. From waking up being angry at the world to going to bed hating myself and the world. "Why me?" I would always say to myself. Why was it me that got adopted, why is it me that always cries and gets...
Abyss
2 years ago
Sometimes when we are going through a rough patch, we don't know what it is to feel, we feel numb inside and sometimes the feeling never seems to leave the body. The pain screams in the pit of our stomach, the thoughts run all over the body making it feel colder. What will happen if we stop feeling? When it rains we feel like it pours, when we cry we feel like the tears are unstoppable, when we feel cold we tell ourselves we are freezing. When we feel numb inside we turn the lights off where we ...
No Room to Complain
2 years ago
We wake up, we make my coffee, we plug in the music and think about how grateful we are to be alive, to have been given the chance to be able to wake. To be able to see, hear, smile, laugh, walk, talk, sing, pet our pets. Say good morning to our parents. Seeing the colors outside. There is so much for us to be grateful for as soon as we wake up. Why do we always catch ourselves complaining about the smallest things that some people don't even have? We complain because it's too hot in the car, me...
Dependent on the Dependency
2 years ago
When suffering with mental health and addiction, when do you say enough is enough? Is it when you have isolated yourself from the world. Is it when you can no longer manage a normal day alone with yourself? Or is it when you can no longer stop crying that you numb yourself with drugs to the point of being back to a healthy weight, or wait... being underweight now. We have all the resources we need, we know where they are and where to reach out for them, so why don't we? We are scared. Bottom lin...