Define: Insecure Attachment
I am insecurely attached.
I don't believe people will be there for me forever, or when I needed it most. My friendships are flowers that will bloom and die in time. My sister, my mother, the people who I know are there for me, who I know will always be there for me, I believe that they won't. I'm just waiting for them to do something wrong so I can say HA! I knew you weren't really there for me! I guess I'm afraid of creating relationships, thinking they will break. Like with my friends who miff me, or others too. Like how my friendships never seem to last that long, or they are based on factors, such as status, looks, money, prestige. Like we are friends with an image, an image that is not real and not a person. Like everyone is replaceable as a friend because all we are looking for is a certain set of characteristics. When I briefly went into counseling my junior year, the counselor seemed shocked at how much I analyzed people. Almost like I saw people as a value, a number and not a sense. Like I talk about people as values, as numbers of what they are worth in society's eyes (a conglomeration of what they look like, how rich they are, how smart they are) everything that will be a predictor of future or current success.