Maya Angelique
Bio
im one of the billions of souls wandering earth
Stories (3/0)
Feeling Older Than I Am
I'm not even 21 and I feel so much older. I find it crazy I can even feel this way. The only thing that would make any sense of why I feel this way is simply due to my mental state and trauma I've gone through. For months I've been trying to wrap my head around many things. My mind just keeps going around in circles. The only break I get is when I'm asleep. I used to take an anti-depressant, but I stopped a few years ago. Now I'm craving the happiness I once felt while I was taking them. There is a song by Troye Sivan called "Happy Little Pill," and that is solely what they were to me, happy little pills. I've been thinking about going back on them because the pain is getting too much to bear. When I stopped taking them, I was at a low point in my life. I stopped taking them because I began to feel depressed. In my mind, then it made sense for me to stop taking them. Only because I thought they weren't helping. Now I'm realizing that decision was an extremely big mistake. I learned taking them was the only thing that was preventing me from getting to the point I got to. My brain was trying its best to function. To deal with life with no help.
By Maya Angelique6 years ago in Psyche
The Beginning of Anxiety
ANXIETY and DEPRESSION You were the warmth I clung onto when I was freezing cold. Trying to rewire my brain from all the chaos that recently happened. You were my light at the end of the tunnel. The tunnel of figuring out who I am . The world I left because the pain was too much to bear. I was trying to drown myself but I kept coming up for air . Each breath I was crying out for help but no one was listening. Finally I realized that I wasn't meant to go, then I just stayed afloat. Thinking the waves would take me to a better place but the sight of the clouds took me to a darker space...
By Maya Angelique6 years ago in Psyche