Depression

I woke up today, and for some reason, I felt good. I hadn't felt this good in quite some time. I thought about what I had been up to recently that could have caused this change in feeling, and almost immediately I started to miss my feeling of misery.

See, misery is comfortable. It sucks you in and causes you to believe any delusions necessary to keep you ensnared. After a while, the delusions become more appealing than the real world. I typically 'suffer' (for lack of a better word) from delusions of grandeur, believing I am greater than I am, as though I am simply waiting for success to come to me. When I am happy, I see the world in a more clear vision of how things really are. And the truth isn't always pretty, but it's always what you need.

I looked at myself and realized that I am not destined to be great. If I want to be great I have to kick my own ass. There's no doubt about it. Nothing in this world is simply handed to you. So I got up. I took a cold shower, and exercised, even though I didn't feel good. I stopped feeling sorry for myself. I am going to make the most of myself, I don't want to find on my deathbed that I didn't live to the best of my potential.

You've got to treat yourself with a firm hand, ever thinking of your greater good. There's nothing wrong with having a treat, there is something wrong with having ten treats that you never earned.

Being a human being, we are in a curious position of being both man and machine. Our animal instincts, which drive many of our desires in life; sex, food, sleep, etc. will consume us if we don't consciously moderate them. Allowing your inner animal to take over will make some people depressed and will dig the whole deeper for others. You must exert human moral and logical control over your inner machine of nature.

You don't want to binge watch Netflix for eight hours, your inner beast does, being appealed to by the manipulation of your brains dopamine reward center. Your inner beast is what tells you to eat too much, and exercise too little. In the wild world of nature, where the human being evolved for millions of years, we were exposed to the feast, and the famine. It is an innate desire to eat as much as you can, as your subconscious still believes that a famine could be coming. But in today's world, the famine never comes, and so we become unhealthy. Likewise, we must also exercise, even though part of us thinks we don't want to. You must squash this. Your mind is a product of your physical body, if you do not take care of one, the other suffers. After exercising, you will feel a wave of happiness with yourself come over you. You won one small battle on your way to a good life.

The human being desires fulfillment, not instant gratification, which we are exposed to through our constant stimuli. Don't make the mistake of believing that TV, social media, video games and other distractions make you happy, they don't. They waste your time. Although they may add something to a fulfilled life, to a life on the right path, they will swallow the potential of someone suffering. Many of us suffer because we are subconsciously aware that we aren't living the life we truly desire. We have settled on 'good enough.'

'Good enough' doesn't exist. You must always strive to be your greatest version. Exercise, eat healthy, chase your career goals, chase love, more importantly chase your dreams.

In the words of Jim Carrey, "You can fail at what you don't want, so you might as well take a chance on doing what you love."