"I Am Brave Enough to Accept Any Challenge Possible"

Nothing is more heartbreaking than retraining yourself from new experiences because of your own insecurities. I believe we all have experienced these kind of situations where saying "yes" is impossible. "I have nothing to wear," "I have a fever," or not replying to texts because "I was sleeping." While some people think you are lying shamelessly, it's a definitely different story for you.

Self-defense mode turns on, and you are determined to stay in a comfort zone.

The feeling is horrifying. You want to go out and experience every given second, but at the same time you are letting out your biggest fears.

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Rejection, offensive comments, or uncomfortable situations were my greatest enemies. When those big guys were in the room, my confidence was nowhere to find. Standing up for myself was impossible.

That's why no one understood why I am so eager to live my days in a locked flat and comfortable room. Have friends over and do something fun "inside." We had loads of fun, but times change.

We were growing up and started wanting more than a night in with a movie on.

This period was the hardest in my life.

I had to forget about my insecurities and fears in order to go with my friends without disappointing them. That was the biggest mistake of mine.

I wasn't listening to my own thoughts and requires, I was listening to others' wishes. I was digging a deeper hole for myself within each day.

Anxiousness started to build, and while outside my smile never went to hide, I was hurting inside. Breakdowns were insulting my, at the time, best friend and that wasn't an option. I couldn't talk about the real situation because I thought that was ridiculous.

It wasn't. It never was.

One day, I decided I had enough with being a small, self-conscious person. I wanted to feel the same way I looked on a night out. I was getting better and better.

Dancing helped me loads. I cannot say I am a professional or that no one moves the way I do, but I knew I could turn everyone's heads towards me. Though, this time because of fascination.

Finally, I was building my non-existent confidence.

Eleventh year in high school was the best of them all.

I accepted the challenge to present one of our most famous artists at the conference. I was speaking to the crowd and I was enjoying it damn well. I was actually living my life.

Step by step, I was discovering more things I loved.

I discovered the history anew. I liked to discuss or argue about certain things but this time not at home with the closest people.

I was speaking my mind whenever I have wanted and what the hell I have wanted.

Fastening forward, I am now living completely alone. I have moved to the UK for studies. Considering the fact that I was a shy and insecure person two years ago, I am proud of myself. I am not afraid to give myself a praise or tell how beautiful or hot I look today. I am flirting with people and having the time of my life.

And, most of all, I am brave enough to accept any challenge possible. I care about myself first.

If you have that, you will make the most of every opportunity thrown your way, and, you will look damned good whilst doing it.

Respect your own wishes first. That is the best thing you could ever do.