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I can only say this once. Depression is not something people want to talk about. It’s a topic that tends to be avoided, even though it’s an important conversation to have. Before you stop reading this, think of what triggered the depression inside of you. Whatever that reason might be.
I’m writing this because I know how it feels, I know what it’s like. I know what it’s like to feel trapped deep inside of yourself as if you’ve been buried alive. I know what it’s like to lose interest in everything that once made you happy. I know what it’s like to feel so alone in a world with so many people in it and yes, this includes all of the caring people you’ve pushed away, leaving you with just yourself. I know what it’s like to constantly be in a battle with yourself and always feel like you are losing. I know what it’s like to live with depression. However, I am not going to sit here and tell you tomorrow is going to be a great day because, odds are, it probably won’t be. I’m not going to sugar coat it because the day after tomorrow or even a couple of weeks from now probably isn’t going to be great, either.
But one of these days, whether it be a month or a year from now, there will be a good day because I am sure of one thing.
I am sure there is hope out there somewhere. Hope for you, hope for me, hope for us. There is a reason why we all continue to pull ourselves out of bed every morning, even if we haven’t found that reason yet.
But, someday there will be a day where you will finally be able to fall asleep without being kept up by your consuming thoughts. There will come a day where you won’t have to pretend to be happy because you truly will be.
There will come a day where you look forward to your future instead of thinking you don’t have one. I am not going to waste time preaching about how you should reach out for help because one thing you should know is that I was in denial about my illness for years so I can’t tell you how to live your life.
Unfortunately, I don’t know you readers right now, so I can’t hold your hand through the storm, but what I can do is tell you that through this journey, there’s so much I wish I could do.
There is so much I wish someone would have told me about battling depression, which is why I am going to tell you what I have discovered in hopes of you using this information to your advantage.
I have learned how to make something out of nothing.
I have been at rock bottom, thinking there was no way out but I’ve realized that by taking your pain and turning it into something beautiful rather than destroy yourself is a good place to start.
A majority of people see pain as a flaw and we usually want to cover it up, but you can turn it around and use it as a tool.
Another big step towards conquering your demons is to be honest with the people who care about you. I know this can be hard but don’t be afraid to tell them how you really feel.
Don’t be ashamed to be honest because lying to yourself is only going to make things worse.
Just please, don’t forget to make sure you take care of yourself.
If you need a break, don’t be afraid to take one.
If you need a night off of work because it’s a bad day, don’t be embarrassed to go lay down.
If you are exhausted and drained, don’t be upset about taking a day off of work or seeing a mate to put yourself first. I know things may seem bad now, but they are only temporary and that is a promise.
Your demons are always going to be there lurking, waiting for you to give in but you cannot let them win.
Take it from someone who has been there. I’ve seen it all. From one fighter to another, you are never alone.