Mental Illness

Hello friends!

My name is Vin, and welcome to Inside My Mind!

This is my first post, so i'm going to address my minds longest, and most dearest resident; my mental illness. Though, this isn't going to be a normal post, so I hope you enjoy.

The part of my mental illness that's been there the longest, is Mr. Depression. Mr. Depression has always been my most satisfying lover, and my most painful enemy. Whenever something went wrong, I would always run into Depression's arms, and it would make this heavy feeling in my chest, that hurt so bad, but made all the pain go away all at the same time.

The next resident in my mental illness, is Mrs. Anxiety. She's my best friend. Her wife, Mrs. Confidence comes over every day first thing in the morning, makes me get up, get dressed, tells me i'm beautiful, almost gets me to walk out the door, and then Mrs. Anxiety comes over, looking for her wife, sees all the work she did, and tells me it was all wrong, and that I shouldn't go, but it's all right, because Mrs. Procrastination will be over soon, and they will both play some board games with me to pass the time.. They continue to do this every day, it's all right, it just means at night I can run into Mr. Depression’s arms.

The most pesky, but most memorable, is Mr. Borderline Personality. I go to him when i'm scared, or don't know what to do, or how to feel. He's a kinky little bastard. He holds me... Kisses me... tells me it's okay, and then controls every little thing I do, so perfectly, so smoothly, I can't even tell he's doing anything. I don't feel too comfortable going further into this, so if you want to see a physical example, watch Billie Eilish’s “Hostage” music video.

My favorite, out of all of them, is Ms. ADHD. She's not Mrs, and she doesn't have any friends, because nobody can seem to handle her. She finds someone every so often, but within a few days, or if she's lucky, weeks, she accidentally gets too excited and scares them away… but it's okay, I think she's fun...

It’s odd that while writing this I seemed to write a description of who I am. I hope that this can help other people with their mental illness, to know they're not alone if they feel this way. All of these illnesses can never be cured, but they can be treated, and you can be taught how to calm down, so don't be afraid to reach out and get help. If you're at a point you can't handle it, call the national suicide support line at 1-800-273-8255, and if you’re too scared to talk, if you google the national suicide hotline underneath their phone number, there is an option to do online chat.

Your life matters.

I love you, I hope you all have a good day, or night wherever you are. Thank you so much for reading.