My Anxiety Changing Medication

So, like many people in the world, I suffer from anxiety, slight PTSD, and depression. My magical cocktail of "joy," we will call it. It all started about 10 years ago after my car accident, to which I was badly injured and in a coma because of. From that point until about five years ago, I was on or had tried almost every anxiety or depression medication on the market. Yup, for most of that time, I felt like a walking, talking zombie—and I was.

Five years ago, I was finally able to stop most of the meds. It was hard at first, but it was the right thing for me. I did not need to be in a constant state of medication anymore. My depression medication switched to one I only needed to take occasionally, when needed, which was great. And I also felt that I did not need my anxiety medication as things were seemingly normal there as well. Which was great because I was able to be myself again.

Then about a month ago, I was hit with the worst anxiety attacks and constant sense of worry. It was so bad I was not sleeping, I was constantly overthinking every little thing, which was hurting all my relationships, and I always had this tightness feeling in my chest. I knew I needed help, but what I did not want was to go back on any heavy medication that made me a zombie. But I did not know what else to do. So, I went to the therapist I had seen for my car accident. To my surprise, she confirmed that I was suffering from PTSD from the accident that was 10 years ago, which is completely normal for someone who dealt with such a traumatic experience to have to deal with. After telling her that I really wanted to avoid the harsh medications because I did not want to be zoned out all the time, she suggested CBD oil.

I was not too sure about this—this oil from a weed plant to help with all these feelings. It was a good laugh at first. But then I looked into it and so many people and scientists were saying it worked, so I thought, what the hell, if it can help people with Parkinson's, why not give it a try myself? I got my prescription, went to an apothecary, and got the oil, which ironically was called the "calm strand." As soon as I got home, I took the dose of .5 ml under the tongue and let the 20 minutes pass for it to take effect. Here is where the shock came, because right at the 20 minutes and one-second mark, I could feel it working. I felt calmer, the tightness in my chest was going away, somewhat, and I felt better. I was shocked really cause it's oil. But the CBD has no THC in it, so it does not make you high, it just gives you a calming experience that weed is typically known for as well, and that is all I felt.

It has worked so well for me over the past month; I have been sleeping better, I feel like myself again, and I did not feel like a zombie, most importantly. Another great factor was that I can take it as much or little as I want during a day, depending on how I feel. I can stop whenever I want, which is a very freeing feeling, as I hated feeling like I was stuck on medication. I was not expecting it to work or anything, but the fact that it worked so quick and just made me myself again was huge. My boyfriend, my friends, and even my boss all noticed a change within a day of me starting it. Now I only take it every once in a while when I feel I need it.

To any readers out there who have bad anxiety and don't want to be on a harsh medication, look into CBD oil. It may not be right for you or work—because we are all different and our anxieties are different—but if you experience what I have, then try it because it worked and it worked right away!