My Mental Health!

Mental Health.

I have a lot to say about mental health but for now we are going to be discussing two mental health disorders. Anxiety and depression. I was always told that anxiety and depression go hand in hand.

My experience with anxiety is quite different.

Most people get diagnosed with anxiety in their early teens but I wasn't diagnosed until I was a senior in high school. I was 18 years old. I'm not going to lie I was scared because I never understood why I had to have anxiety. Having anxiety made my life hell. I was always too shy to talk to people or even do things I loved doing. I am now 22 years old and I have learned a lot about my anxiety and how I can some what control my attacks. For example, before I get an anxiety attack I always get this metallic metal taste in my mouth and I don't know if that is normal or not but it always allowed me to stop an anxiety attack before it even starts, of course sometimes it doesn't always work but hey I'm still learning. Also having to take pills, which I don't like, in order to help my anxiety but I don't really like taking pills to help me with something I can already deal with myself. I know everyone is different but that is just my opinion on the whole pill situation. Once my doctor gave me anxiety medication that helped for like 2 days but by the third day I was experiencing heavy depression.

My experience with depression.

When I was diagnosed with depression, it wasn't just depression. I was diagnosed with severe clinical depression. I was always sad and not only that I was always in my room or I was always sitting on my bed. Sometimes or almost everyday I wouldn't wake up until 1pm and I wouldn't leave my room until maybe 1:30 or 2pm. I won't clean or do anything I was always very lazy and sometimes it always gets to the point where I don't want to leave my house at all because I'm either scared to eave my house or I'm just in such a bad mood I don't want to be around anyone. Life for me has always been a challenge but it's getting easier. Now I have to leave my room because I have a puppy who needs to run or play with my brother's dog so I'm forced to leave my room which is great. Life is becoming less stressful. Living with depression is hard I'm not gonna lie, but it has been getting easier. I still have episodes of depression but I know I can make it through each day.

Mental health is a hard thing to talk about but it also is a great thing if you do talk about it to let out all of your frustrations or questions. Getting help helped me so it will help you to.

I am going to talk to you about a really bad anxiety attack I once had. I was in my room doing homework when all of a sudden I got this metal taste in my mouth and I tried to stop the attack before it happened and of course it didn't stop. This attack was worse than any attack I've ever had because I ended up fainting to the point that I thought that I needed to go to the hospital because it was so bad. I never had an experience like that in my 22 years.

Sometimes things like this happen and it's out of our control. I ended up getting a puppy and that helped me so much with my anxiety that I haven't had an attack in months and of course it's different for everybody but this has helped me. I appreciate life more, I go outside, I get out of my room more often than I did before. Yes mental health is hard to talk about but hey life isn't always easy.