My Truth on ​Depression

Depression is felt by everyone. Every time and everywhere in the world, usually, people have their own unique and first-hand experience on the concept of depression. Some like the feeling of void and absolute blankness that falls as tears fall down their cheek while some compress it, let it mold into a destructive force that swallows them whole.

They hide deep inside people; they are experts at hiding and camouflaging within a person.

They have full control of appearing whenever they want, but usually do when their host is alone. They start branching around the person until there is absolutely nothing passing through the cocoon.

It is completely dark. Now the host has two choices: 1) Remain at this stage; remain in this darkness and don't break out, or 2) Break out. Break all the branches around you. But whatever the next move would be is entirely your decision to make.

Personally, depression came from a traumatic experience—moment—whatever you want to call it, but when it first started, I thought it was only sadness.

Then it started growing and molding into a more "scary" form. It turned from a small cell into a humungous, six-legged spider whose face is a white, bald head with bandages around their unrevealed eyes, hanging loose.

In a dark and gloomy place, trees wailing and swaying, but there is no sound except for your ears ringing.

Another way they make their way through you is by feeding off your failures and hopes you've failed or left behind. They create this sudden rush of guilt and helplessness that flows in you.

This rush of extreme emotions takes a toll. It starts to haunt and daunt you. Whenever you succeed, it brings a calm and soothing calmness, but depression is such an immense and piercing emotion that it goes through all the calm, then it starts surrounding around your emotions.

Depression does not have a definite definition, so what is scary about depression is it comes in all shapes and forms. It is a cheesy way of saying it, but it is true, so the way depression is felt depends on a person's interpretation of their emotion.

What you think of depression might be what I interpret to be stress or vice versa.

Now, this is where I draw a correlation between stress and depression. This is just a theory and could be wrong, but this is definitely where the analytical side of this post comes.

Stress is the body's reaction to any external changes that require changes, and the body reacts to this with the mental, physical, and emotional response.

Stress IS a normal part of life in this generation, but what happens when there occurs to be an overload of stress? Any person would respond to this by an outburst of cries.

But what exactly would come with stress is a fear of failure; the fear of not succeeding in a goal that you have been chasing all your life.

What it brings with this fear is negative thoughts and predictions of the future where you have failed, and this then brings a feeling of uselessness. This cycle then continues until it provides enough fuel for depression.

The depression then grows and protrudes from their host and takes them prisoner.

Depression has a much more complex system. As said before, depression does not have a definite definition and comes in all shapes and forms. People feel it in a different way and let it take a toll on them differently, as well.

In this attempt of trying to understand this array of emotions that has affected multiple lives, I hope those that read it can try and create their own opinion and give their own definition to such a fragile emotion.