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Pills and Doctors Don't Always Work

Hear Me Out....

By LilithVPublished 6 years ago 3 min read
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Let's be honest. I am somehow magically the exception to the rule. Everything you have been taught about psychology isn't the truth for me... let me explain why.

Since I was a small child when everyone found the magic pill that made children "behave"... I was on it. Ritalin. Because, you know, you are supposed to be able to trust doctors right? You don't know your own mind or body but your doctor does. No. They could not have had this more wrong for me.

Since I was a child, I had been medicated. I had over 200 "imaginary" friends. No no no wait... Schizophrenia. I felt others' feelings so immensely I could not figure out where their feelings started and mine ended. No no nope... bipolar. See the pattern here???

Now at 33, I have not taken psych meds for over 2 years. I know who and how I am, and I cope. However, this planet is so confused. No one wants to figure out what is going on with themselves. They want a band-aid.

Don't get me wrong. I know it is possible to have a legit mental illness. I get it. Pills work for some, and for some they do not. However, those pills always come with side effects. It would be nice if people did more "inner" work instead of having someone "outside" fix it for them.

Turns out... who knew what was wrong with me? Can you guess? I had been beaten as a child, molested, bullied, and belittled. When you are told over and over again that you are an "odd" child or you are crazy, you tend to start believing it.

Children are shooting up schools, burning buildings, and it seems that everyone is always angry with no end in sight. I get that everyone needs someone to blame. A reason. An explanation. Something that somehow makes sense and no one has to accept accountability. No one realizes... generations after generations have been taught it is ok to hit a child when they do something not appropriate or good for their safety. So for generations, we have been taught that the only way to cope when we are mad at someone or ourselves is violence. How long did everyone think it would take for it to all come to a head?

Free yourself. Undo what you are, to the bare minimum of your soul and work from there. Sometimes, just sometimes, the pills aren't the answer.

Why not heal the pain instead of trying to cover it, where it will come back to haunt you? Do I have bad days; yes. However, those are now...days... not weeks, months or even years. Why would you not try to understand your child as a person, rather than some military grunt that isn't following orders? Children are not supposed to be ordered around; they are supposed to have guidance. Teach your children HOW to think, not WHAT to think.

In this new age... where all the abuse is coming to light, how about trying to spread a little love into the world? Start with your family. Your spouse. Your children. Your neighbor that you can't stand. Try a little understanding, a little more empathy, a little more compassion and you will see people around you, start to heal. Tell your stories, even if your voice breaks, even if the tears come.

One thing I have learned is that everyone has been through something that change who they are, at their core; their soul. When you speak about pain, anguish, things you have been through; it releases the pain and the words, it frees them from your mind. You are NOT who abused, used, or hurt you. You are NOT what happened to you, you are the person that survived it. SURVIVED. Not victim, a survivor.

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About the Creator

LilithV

I am happily married to my very best friend. My passions are healing, occult, history, religion, theology, and psychology. I write all from personal life experiences and all my writings are non-fiction.

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