Quit Your Anti-Medication Stigma

I have to say that I’m floored every time I deal with an anti-medication/anti-vaxxer New Ager. That’s nuts. I mean, I need to use Western medicine to stay alive at all. If I’m irresponsible even once, it could kill me. Yes, it is true. One lapse of responsibility and I’m a goner. This is why I need to be responsible for taking my medication, something some of you cannot hope to grasp. So this is why whenever I do any kind of psychic training classes in the Bay Area, I need to be on the same page with you people.

You cannot tell me to stop taking my medication, you just can’t. This stuff controls my power. It helps me control myself. One question on my power of attorney quiz is, “Does mania make me mean, true or false?” This is a legitimate question since mania turns me mirror-universe (Star Trek) evil. Yes, it does. You do not want to be on the business end of me not being myself. Nobody wants to be that victim. This is why I need to take my medication, if only because I do not want to hurt other people.

I was once a member of a group where somebody said “get off all your meds and ground yourself.” Excuse me for not dealing with your ignorance and stigma. Wow, that is ignorant, as medication is the only way I can control my abilities as well as my power. My skillset could wind up hurting somebody if I’m not careful. I cannot throw my energy around like that. So yes, you see why I take my medication? It is dangerous to tell someone with my skillset, “You don’t need medication.” I’m not easily brainwashed into believing that first of all.

You have no idea the terrible suffering I went through in high school on top of that. I was inundated with emotion all the time, my own, other people’s. This is why it is wrong to tell me that I cannot take my medication. You condemn me to suffer if that’s the case. I had to deal with my family interfering in my attempts to get treatment. It took me ten long years to find the right medication. This is ten years I cannot get back, ever. I do not want to think about the past, but rather the future, where I will have a masters’ degree/J.D. joint degree from UCLA.

You cannot hope to understand the terrible suffering I went through since my family refused me medication until I was 20. Off meds or on the wrong meds and addicted to caffeine, I found paying attention to be a struggle in those painful days. Having type-1 diabetes and schizophrenia is painful. My diabetes determines the quality of my mental health, as one example of why I need to take my medication. I spent a few years of my life having high blood pressure on top of everything else. My endocrinologist noticed this and prescribed me a blood pressure medication.

I’m better in many regards because of my mental health finally being treated appropriately. I feel well rested these days. I actually feel better, because I’m okay with my mental health being what it is today. I’m doing better than I ever thought possible. In fact, I’m doing better than my friends ever thought I could be doing since my family interfered with my attempts to get the proper treatment for my schizophrenia which I didn’t know I had until I was 30. Sure, hints were dropped when I was told of my 22q, but I wasn’t sure about schizophrenia being my diagnosis until college, and well until after college. Yes, now I’m finally stable and away from sabotage until certain people come back to mess with me.