The Innocent Shall Not Be Harmed

If the innocent do not deserve harm, then I have been harmed one too many times all through school by bullies, as well as by my family. Innocent people should not be subjected to harm, but many times the bad guy needs to harm people. The bad guy truly means the innocent harm in most stories. I didn’t have my diabetes treated in time and I wound up near death in a diabetic coma. I've had my family force me to overdose on insulin in the first and only time I have ever passed out.

I’m just not into emergencies because I simply do not have them. I have been bullied because of Xs in my energy field—and for no good reason. At some point in college, I got deeply fed up with the bullies. I did go after my roommates and succeeded at moving out of that toxic house into a safer spot. My whole life I have been haunted by abuse. I have no idea why this is because all the reading I’ve done using my Cyndi Dale books states that this is a “Paper Doll” pattern. Yes, this next piece comes from The Intuition Guidebook by Cyndi Dale, because even if I’m working on understanding “the law of the innocent. No one has the right to manipulate, hut, or take advantage of the innocent,” (129) I’m still struggling with the Paper Doll.

This nonsense has slowed down my life. I’m trying to fix the Paper Doll pattern because my jobs turn out the same way. I’m also hesitant to get into any relationship with anybody until I get my head on straight with regards to all my psychic talents. What many teachers fail to realize is that I’m schizophrenic and need my medication. Period. What Facebook groups need to realize is the same: My medication is the only way I can ground, center, shield, and focus.

I’m done encountering your stigma. Telling me to give up on medication is rude, evil, and plain out of line. This is why my Facebook page has strict guidelines about how to deal with these topics when it comes to Western medicine. Some people who believe in the psychic talent stuff don’t believe in using Western medicine because you can “heal yourself” using your mind, or other people can heal you, using your energy. I’m realistic. I’m not “manifesting experiences of harm” to myself. That’s just ridiculous and some people need to be using their Goddess-given brain on this stuff.

Things just happen. I’ve been through way too much non-stop violence or outright cruelty. I have wanted these life patterns of mine to stop, to just flat out stop. Why should I put up with mean people as my family and schooling taught me to do? I’m done with mean people, as I have had one too many narcissists for a friend. I’m also done having narcissistic friends. I’ve had to dump those. I’ve had way too many narcissistic friends through my Paper Doll situation. I’m quite fed up with repetitive patterns. I insist on having normal patterns restored to me.

I’m simply frustrated. But I’m done being frustrated. I want to make a dent in my joblessness and move forward with my life because I have too much training I need to do in order to properly use my psychic ability in readings. I’m pretty much fed up with my financial situation, too, because something has to break in my life, and I have to get a job and make money. I have to start focusing on psychic training as well as my mental health, but at least I have my medication and I’m able to treat that half. The other stuff I have to do is make enough money to put myself into mental health rehab—somewhere I can confront my symptoms, in order to heal them.