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After about two years of using heroin, I realized I couldn't just quit on my own. I had tried almost every drug known to man before that point in my life. But, I was always able to just quit like it was nothing. So I led myself to believe that I had a very strong will power and could overcome anything and everything that was thrown in front of me. I realized I was wrong about that. Once I was addicted to opiates, the shit was a whole new monster. My mind knew I was getting bad and needed to quit, but my body said, "Oh no sir, you need this shit like you need the blood that pumps through your veins, and without it, you will feel like death.”
That feeling is like you have a flu virus that came from some far off land, 5000 miles away from civilization. A flu that no over the counter medicine will be able to touch. Because the only thing that will take that horrible feeling away, once you have it, is to do more heroin. Is it making a little sense now? You can't quit the shit because you will feel worse than you have ever felt, unless you do more to make yourself feel better. Isn't that a real mind fuck?
Once I knew that I was never going to be able to quit on my own, I humbly and nervously went to my father and told him I had a problem, and guess what, he said he would do anything he could to help me get off it.He was also glad that I had come to him for help. Now I was about 22-years-old at this time. I had started the OXY when I was about 19. Used the pills for about a year and then started using heroin at about 20.